So much has happened in the last 3+ years. I guess if you and I are Facebook friends you kinda already know. There's really no way to adequately back track here and "recap" so I'm not going to. In fact.... I'd like to admit something.
SAY IT OUT LOUD for myself even if not one person ends up reading this.
A lot of why I haven't posted here..... I finally realized.... was because I believed the lies rolling around in my head.
"Nobody cares" ..... "Nobody reads this" ..... "Your artsy stuff isn't THAT cute" and the BIGGEST LIE.... "You don't have time for that" LOL I laugh at the last one because we ALWAYS have time for what we deem important. That's been a big excuse to justify staying away.
Something I read today changed EVERYTHING though. I promise you this is worth the few minutes of your time. There's SO MANY GEMS that every woman, mama, PERSON needs to hear!!!!
I had many light bulb moments while reading it but one thing I took away is that I am 46 years old and I have many talents and my beautiful, amazing family LOVES ME. I love to share my life and my creativity with them ANY WAY I CAN. WITH NO FEAR OF JUDGEMENT OR CRITICISM FROM RANDOM PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET. That sounds soooooo silly typing that out but there really was a time when I worried about what I posted here.
THIS. IS. MY. PLACE.
And I'm going to start having fun with it like it is. Whether that's sharing some fun Valentine's I made for Chloe's class or sharing my favorite Podcast for that week..... WHATEVER and WHENEVER... not worrying about Trends, or staying relevant, or having the best photography or being Pinterest Worthy!!!!! THAT KIND OF STUFF..... is exactly what I don't have time for.
I have decided also this year that I am going to focus on extending myself and others MORE GRACE.
Why is this so hard?
So in an effort to remind myself daily I actually painted this canvas to keep in my room. I love the reminder to give love and GRACE to all who need it and most importantly MYSELF.
Okay..... I don't want this post to be 10 miles long. I'm cutting it short but I will be back soon but if there's anyone out there actually reading this.... PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!!! I'm kicking the soda habit again for the 1,279th time in my life but this time after seeing the doctor on Wednesday it feels like a life or eventual death thing. And even though I LOVE ME SOME DR PEPPER... nothing is worth cutting my life on earth short with my family. <3